6-16-2023 Thurs
--PWR CLN + OHP--
190(1+6)*1*2
190(1+5) failed 6th ohp
..first sign of The Weakening??
165(1+6)*1*2
4's.i.
...seems craxy to power clean with a injured back, but
tried it out with light weights first, and put extra effort into not
jerking it off the floor. AND, this aint al ot of weight bro
--INCLINE DB PRESS--
80*8*4
3' s.i.
Great success!!! Last week it was 8,8,8,7.
And I did those last two extra backoff OHP sets.
So now IDK what happened on OHP, meh
--LTE--
35+5+grn bar *8,8,7
3's.i.
I went up 5# from last week, didn't get 3x8, but this is an improvement in my eyes.
--MATRIX PLT.LOADED FLAT BP--
180*12,10,8
wasted now
--MATRX SEATD MACH DELT RAISE--
I didn't want to do lat raises standing cuz my back.
70*15
80*15, 13
1:30 rests, machine timer
--STANDARD TRICEP CABLE PUSHDOWN --
60*15
70*12*2
might have rushed things a bit at the end, cuz my wife was waiting on me.
NOTES:
Yeah, the OHP failure? IDK, maybe I got some out of spec plates this week, or last week (light).
DB presses and LTEs went really well. I keep exact track of rest times and everything.
Who knows. Maybe I was "timid" because of my back issues...you flex and extend your back quite a bit(even tho I do these "strict" and upright).
The powercleans definately felt zippier because I didn't do deads yesterday, or any serious leg work at all.
Only up side to all this, I can now rotate my leg-day and my GPP/cardio day around to where I can PwrCln on fresher legs.
As far as the TRT "withdrawal" stuff, I'm into the 3rd or 4th week now. I get sleepy much easier in the afternoons. Sleep isn't as good either. Yep, my sex drive has completely tanked; which wasn't a problem at all before TRT....was always horny.
Hopefully I just get back to my normal pre-trt self. I'm guessing I'm extra-extra-low-T right now of course.
It will be interesting to see how the wife reacts to all this. Every since we've been together, I've had the high libido of the two of us for sure.... hopefully this is temporary. She probably accuse me of cheating .... but she does know what's going on with the therapy, and the obvs implications of going off.
I'm not depressed per se, but I just don't really give a fuck about anything one way or another, and before, that fact made me ... "sad"?.
But now it seems: I just don't care about not caring about anything. Just totally "bleh" about everything.
Stuff goes wrong at my business, and I don't freak out like before .....we'll see how long this lasts or if things change.
I might just be "mental" ....
Body weight is the same; maybe have lost 1 pound over the last 2-3 weeks doubling down on the cardio
I'm going to fast and pull a blood panel on Monday; I'm curious as to my lipids and other shit....and well as T, E2, LH, FSH.
I did get into a urologist finally, nice lady that stuck her finger up my butt.
She says my prostrate is fine. Gave me a letter/note to give to the clinic saying I'm fine. That blood panel I did on my
own shows my PSA went back down (she reviewed that) ....
....but now that I'm into a 3 week break, I think I'll ride it out and see what happens...for SCIENCE !!!